How to repay the debt of love in previous lives?

Is there really a past life? Will there be an afterlife? If only there were, at least, I still have a chance to repay the debts I owe in my life. I don't remember anything from my last life. I don't know if I owe a debt of love. If so, maybe I have given or am giving in my life.

I don't know if there is a debt of love. I only know that if there is an afterlife, I am eager to continue to meet my mother in that world and be a mother and son, so that I can repay my unfilial filial piety to her in this life. People who have not experienced it cannot understand the sadness and repentance of the seed that they want to raise but not stay.

I always felt that I still had a lot of time and opportunities to be filial to my mother. I always tell myself in my heart that when my career is stable and my economic situation improves, I will take my mother out for a good walk, or let her eat something she hasn't eaten and see something she hasn't seen. Knowing that my mother has suffered a lot, I always thought that I must have the ability to make her enjoy happiness.

Who knows, there are unexpected events in the sky, and people have fortunes. Mother found out the advanced stage of gastric cancer, which has spread. Just three months, this is the time when she left me. For three months, I have been looking for medicine everywhere like crazy, and I know there is little hope. But I'm not reconciled. I can't stand by and watch her suffer and do nothing.

However, I lost after all. Mother left with endless worries. I had a brief waking moment when I left, telling me to take good care of my dad, to be a kind person, and to tell my brother not to be too tired … I know she has too much to let go. However, in the face of death, we are not even humble. I can only watch helplessly as she calls her grandmother who has passed away, unwilling to give her last breath.

I forgot how I cried and why I didn't cry. Three years later, I still can't get out. Even when I see someone about my mother's age, my heart will cramp.

I remember that time I went to Hechuan, Chongqing on business, and when I was waiting for the bus in the waiting room, I saw a figure very similar to my mother. That figure, face and even braid are similar. I stayed and couldn't help following her for a long time, until she had entered the ticket barrier and looked at the fading back, and I suddenly realized. That's not my mother. Because my mother had a high fever when she was pregnant with me, it was inconvenient to walk on one leg. I knelt down in pain and cried, regardless of other people's strange eyes, just letting my tears vent freely, and then cried in despair: "Mom, if only you were still there!" " ! ! !

Parents are here, and there is still a place in life. If there is no place, there is only the way home. I hope that friends who have the opportunity to be filial don't wait, even if it's just a phone call and a greeting, it may be a reason for you to feel gratified in the future.

At 0: 40 in the morning/kloc-0: 40, I used this place for the first time to summon up courage and pour out my guilt and thoughts about my mother. It's not that I can't sleep at night, it's just that my father has an upset stomach. I gave him medicine and watched him fall asleep. I don't trust, just wait in the study next to me, in case he has something to call me. May God be merciful and bless my father's health and safety. I promised my mother that I would take good care of him.

Mom, I hope there is an afterlife. I am still your son! At that time, I won't miss it again and leave no regrets! ! !