My age is 26.

I am 26 years old. I remember working in Tonglu, Hangzhou on 0/5. In order to escape the pressure/worry of work, I found an old gentleman to tell my fortune (actually, I wanted to find someone to encourage myself to stick to it). I just left campus and wanted to integrate into society quickly. It's hard.

I remember the old man said that I was going to get married at the age of 26. From then on, I began to yearn for it. I thought that after I got married, I could have people different from me, watch movies together, go shopping together and share the work pressure together. We will grow up together and have our own children, one or two ~

But the reality always brings you multiple "surprises" as scheduled. I fell in love at the age of 24, and the second step of fate stopped me. Although he was stopped by his parents, he got a marriage certificate at the age of 26. But the old man didn't remind me that at the age of 26, in addition to the joy of getting a certificate, it was followed by the suspension of reality.

8. 18 is the day when I get my certificate. At that time, I went to the Municipal Public Security Bureau, and the staff said that the reception was limited every day during the epidemic and I needed to make an appointment by phone. The second step of fate stopped me. We found someone and found a relationship. I must get it today. Of course, the result was successful.

September 16, I went to the drugstore to buy medicine because of flatulence. I bought a pregnancy test stick because I thought of the delay of my official holiday, and I got pregnant. We are happy, moved and nervous. In a word, it was a very complicated mood. I am pregnant, I feel sick, I feel sleepy, I accept all the reactions, I think I am a mother, and I hope I can let the little life see the world. So I let myself eat well and sleep well. It's a pity that my weakness failed to keep him.

On September 20, because I was vaccinated on August 29, they asked me to abort the child, resist, cry and ask for help. No matter what, I can't find anyone to support me. Parents dare not speak, in-laws are cruel outside, and people who yearn for them don't say a word. I feel like a woman who lives in the old society and is trampled upon by others. The document issued by the state is that the vaccine is effective. It is not found that pregnant mothers do not need to terminate pregnancy after vaccination. Can the country protect a helpless person like me? Who can we turn to when they are under pressure?

I started to be hospitalized on September 24th, started to take medicine, began to despair, and began to give up ~ I don't know what words to use to express the situation at that time, and my heart was like stagnant water.

The funny thing is that I didn't divorce, just because he didn't agree with the law.

In order to pretend to make it up to me, he asked me to buy a house and we lived separately from our parents. That's right ~ I really think starting a new home is my hope for life. Suffering from physical discomfort, we kept looking at the house in the morning and afternoon, and I just wanted to escape there. I was nauseous for more than a moment.

One day in September, we were going to sign the contract in the afternoon, and he changed his mind. At first, I asked him to help me save my little life, and I lasted all night. I changed my mind the next day. I drilled the same hole twice.

And I'm not divorced ~

10. 1 1 What might it be for? He said that the wedding would be held at the end of the year. We don't have a new house, and the commercial house we live with our parents is our monthly payment. I want a new bed after marriage and move out of the study to live in the master bedroom. Am I asking too much? Even this, he can't ask his parents ~

This is the 26-year-old I aspire to ~

That ridiculous 26-year-old ~