22-year-old, long time no see.

That year, I happened to be 2 1 year old. Aunt Niu came to my house excitedly and said to my mother, "There is a woman in West Zhang Cun who is one year younger than your National Day. She is tall and strong, but she is a good worker. " After a pause, he whispered, "A big ass can give birth to a son."

As soon as my mother heard that she could work and had a big ass, she smiled and squinted and said yes.

In those days, she gave birth to a son if she could work, and she was the best daughter-in-law in the countryside.

The next day, the matchmaker took the mother and daughter to the door. Mother is round and fat, which is an era of lack of food and oil. I am bored. Is it because I am broad-minded and fat?

My daughter is also strong and tall. The matchmaker said, "This is charming. This is her mother. "

When she opens her mouth, she looks like a duck. My mother said, "Is this cold so serious?"

Her mother replied, "no, I have a bad cold and my voice is hoarse." It will be fine after a while. "

She is not petite and her voice is not feminine, so she was named Jiaomei. This name is very difficult.

By the time we got married, the voice was still bad. We believe that the cold is so tenacious.

I never thought that her cold would last a lifetime. By the time I really woke up, it was too late.

Later, I learned that her beautiful voice was so low that someone nicknamed her "Mother Duck".

Her rich voice seemed to be forced out from the depths of her thin throat, and only in her mouth did she squeeze out the voice with relief. The sound tormented my ears and my heart. It is depressing to think of the sound of grandpa (who is a carpenter) scraping bamboo with a knife every time.

The charming voice doesn't sound much better to me than the sound of scraping bamboo with a knife.

My mother said that if she could work and have children, she would be a good wife. Why is her voice so beautiful? She is not a singer. My mother needs a working daughter-in-law to help her. It is right to say that our family needs her to work in the fields.

I really don't like it, but my mother likes it. Besides, I can't divorce her just because she is a duck voice. That would be mean. Someone would poke her in the spine.

I want to get used to it. Maybe I will.

Jiao Mei is really a good worker. Transplanting, harvesting, hoeing, harrowing and carrying loads are no less than men. My mother is very dependent on her. The villagers also praised her, saying that Lao Zhang's family is really blessed, welcoming the "cow" daughter-in-law into the door and worshiping her in-laws.

I work in the county construction bureau, doing some survey, design and drawing.

After work at night, I picked up the erhu and went to the nearby river. The breeze is blowing gently, and a clump of reeds is swaying with the wind. There is a bright moon overhead, the river is sparkling, and the river flows quietly, like a silver belt flowing downstream in the moonlight.

I set up the erhu and played a song "Two Springs Reflecting the Moon". Fireflies danced and chased and played in the low grass.

I'm glad I don't have to stay with my sister all the time, so I don't have to suffer from my ears. It is also a pleasure to spend time alone by this quiet river cliff.

I go back 2-3 times a month and only stay for a short day or two, but even these two days make me feel very uncomfortable. I wish I could set all the clocks in the world faster, so that I can pack my bags and leave her at once.

Every time I go home, Jiao Mei always serves me wholeheartedly. I never take part in the work at home. Bath water helps me get ready. She is a completely good wife. She has never held a grudge against me or complained about the pain. Ten days after we got married, I went back to work, leaving her to live with her in-laws and sister-in-law who were strangers at that time. It seems that she married our family instead of me. She also took over all my responsibilities.

She is a perfect daughter-in-law in the eyes of her parents. I am grateful to her in my heart, but I can't really love her. When I was alone with her, she didn't understand a word I said and I was tired of what she said. She is either silent or her parents are short-lived, chewing the secrets and scandals of the villagers.

Whether she is silent or noisy, I just deal with it, that is, I don't look happy or disgusted. I don't love her, she is filial to me, and I will do my "tolerance" and duty as a husband. She is far from my ideal wife. This undoubtedly inspired my heart to loneliness.

Later, she became pregnant, and even though she was about to give birth, she was still busy in the fields.

She gave birth to a lovely pink baby girl for me. Because of my daughter, my mood to go home has become urgent. I held her in my arms, listened to her babbling, smelled her milky fragrance, and watched her eyes roll around like black diamonds. I feel extremely happy. I love her more than anyone and anything in the world. So deep, so thick.

Jiao Mei has worked harder since she had a daughter. But there are more smiles on her face. Sometimes she smiles at her daughter and then smiles shyly at me.

02

Next National Day, the county will hold a cultural performance, and all units will send personnel to participate. I really don't want to take part in such activities, but people at work know that I can play erhu and recommend me to go. The leader of the unit said, "You are glory for our unit, so you must go!" "

When people meet, I think God has already made arrangements in the dark. Whose house you are reborn in, the other half you will meet, the woman you will meet in the future, everything is doomed and inevitable, and the person you should meet will meet sooner or later.

Sooner or later? If you can choose the order of looks, how many bitter couples and enemies will there be in this world? !

At that time, I met the woman I love most in my life. I don't think I'll know until I die. Is it fate or disaster for me to participate in this performance?

In the backstage of the performance, the figure of a girl attracted me. In a group of people, she stands out like that. A long black braid bypassed the slender neck from the back of the head and landed gently on the plump and straight chest. Qi Mei's bangs, a pair of eyes shining like stars, bloom under long eyelashes. The eyes are so clear and gentle, the mouth is sipping, and the lovely lips seem to want to talk. She has a flute in her right hand. Jade refers to lush, white and bright. I suddenly lost my mind and lost my temper.

I was about to take my eyes back, but I accidentally met her projected eyes. We smiled at each other. That glance and smile rippled in the lake of my heart.

When she blew "whipping the whip to urge the horse to carry food" on the stage, I marveled at this quiet-looking woman, but she was full of youth and vitality on the stage. This is another kind of her. Her quiet under the stage, or her youthful vitality on the stage, attracted me too much.

I feel like I'm in love with her.

The feeling of love is so sudden. I told myself that I shouldn't miss the opportunity to know her. As soon as she got off the stage, I greeted her and said, "The flute is really nice. Hello, my name is Zhang Guoqing, from the Construction Bureau. "

"Hello, my name is Tong Wu, and I'm Indus. In the Education Bureau. "

I'm glad that our two units are not far apart.

In the evening, I picked up the erhu and came to the river. Only at this moment, my heart is quiet and comfortable. I really enjoy my time alone, like the quiet at night, like the singing of the river, like the chirping of insects, and the world at night is so beautiful.

Suddenly I saw a shadow, hazy. I took a closer look, and it turned out to be Tong Wu. My heart is pounding. I have always had her in my mind since that meeting. I didn't expect to meet her here.

"Tong Wu, what brings you here? What a coincidence! I met you again. " She may have been thinking, but she didn't hear my footsteps approaching. Hearing my voice, she turned her head in shock. When she looked up and saw it was me, she stood up and patted her ass with her hand.

"Yes, what a coincidence! I met you again. Will you remember my name? "

"Of course, the name is nice and easy to remember, Indus."

We sat next to each other, her hands clasped in her knees, and the night wind blew her hair.

She said that she learned to play the flute from her father when she was a child. I said I learned it from my uncle. We chatted casually, and it was late at night before we knew it. "It's time to go back." She said.

I really wanted her to stay with me for a while, but I got up anyway. In a deep alley, we waved goodbye.

I have insomnia at night. She smiled and covered her mouth, cocked her head and listened to my concentration. She combed her hair gently. Her smile and every move seem to have magic. I think I'm fascinated by her.

What's in her little head melon seeds always surprises me. She can talk about Kan Kan all the time. She said it was her father's credit. Her father is a junior high school teacher and likes literature. There are many books at home. Influenced by his father, Tong Wu also read many books. This is a woman with an air of scholar.

We talked about Dream of Red Mansions, Romance of the Three Kingdoms, childhood dreams and interesting stories.

I am introverted, but I was inadvertently opened by Tong Wu. I have never been so carefree, and the conversation made me feel so hearty for the first time. It is hard to find a bosom friend in life. I think that's about it.

After a night of ups and downs, when I felt sleepy, I dreamed that I would meet her again tomorrow.

When we met again, I caught surprise and longing in her eyes, just like my longing.

On the third night after that night, we met in the old place again.

We are still sitting next to each other, the breeze is still fragrant, the river flows quietly, and there is a warm current flowing slowly in our hearts.

I finally got up the courage to meditate on one, two, three, and then blurted out, "When I went back that night, I ... I couldn't sleep, and all I could think about was you."

She quickly lowered her head, her long eyelashes covered her eyes like curtains, and she couldn't see the reaction of her eyes, which made me feel a little sorry.

She snorted, pulled a strand of hair behind her ear and gave me a quick look. At the moment when her eyes met, she shyly lowered her head and curled her hair with her fingers.

I held out my hand, panting with nervousness. I grabbed her shoulder, she stiffened, and then leaned her head gently on my shoulder. I freed my other hand, grabbed her hand and put it in my palm. Her hands are warm and soft, and at the moment of skin contact, it seems that there is an electric current from the palm to the palm.

I suddenly have a strong impulse to hug her. I lay down on my side and caught her. I felt her heartbeat, the tenderness in her chest, the shortness of breath in her ear, and the natural and fresh body fragrance on her body fascinated me.

03

Since that night, our feelings have warmed up rapidly. By that river, I heard her play the flute and she listened to me play the erhu. Stars come to catch fireflies and spend most of their time talking to each other. We always seem to have endless words, with undiminished interest and endless topics.

But there is a faint worry in my heart. I'm afraid of losing her. I am afraid that one day she will know that I cheated her, and then she will cut off contact with me and disappear into my world. As I became more and more attached to her, my worries and fears deepened.

I really want to tell her the truth, but every time I want to speak, I swallow it back. I think I'm too afraid of losing her.

In an instant, two months have passed. Jiao Mei called to ask, and I always said that the unit was busy.

So I didn't go home for a long time and took the bus home. After getting off, I walked three miles to the door. My daughter was sitting on a stool in front of my house, and I shouted "Little Darling". She heard the shouts, turned around, saw me, and twitched towards me. I couldn't put my arms around her and kissed her on the cheek. Then I picked her up and she giggled on my head. Little darling is my greatest desire to go home.

In the evening, Jiao Mei made my bath water and bed as usual. We sleep in the same bed, but we are strange partners. I have another woman in my heart. Because we haven't seen each other for a long time, Jiao Mei was very enthusiastic and active that night, but I was not interested at all. I turned her down, and I vaguely felt that living with my wife was a betrayal of Tong Wu.

So I gave her a hug and said, "I'm really tired today. Let's go to sleep. " Jiao Jie angrily said nothing. I turned my back and closed my eyes, thinking about all kinds of things with Tong Wu.

The next night I knew I couldn't escape, so I dealt with it. Afterwards, both of them felt dull. Jiao Mei naturally thinks I'm a little perfunctory. I am because under me is a charming sister, not Tong Wu. But this is a "war" after all, and I finally fulfilled my obligation. I felt tired and fell asleep soon.

Because of my performance these two nights, Jiao Mei was quite dissatisfied and lost a lot of smiles during the day. My gruff voice seems to be getting more hoarse, and I don't care. If you have nothing to do, just play with the little boy. She is my pistachio, and my sister's mood doesn't affect me at all. Anyway, I have to go to work again in the afternoon. Sister Jiao helped me pack my things and told me to take care of myself and get along well with others.

Tired of listening, I answered casually. I went out and held it in Jiao Mei's hand. When I saw that I was leaving, I began to cry, with tears and a runny nose. I squeezed her meaty little hand, wiped a new line of tears for her, told her that her father would be back in two days, and then turned around and left. She changed from crying to howling. Looking back, one of her hands stretched forward with difficulty, and her little hand stretched out to recruit me, shouting, dad, dad's shouts were intermittent in sobs. At this parting moment, although I am so sad and anxious, my heart is happy and my eyes are moist.

04

I haven't seen you for three days, and I am eager to see Tong Wu. When I arrived, I went straight to her house. When she opened the door, she saw me and threw herself into my arms. I hugged her and touched her back gently with one hand. Her arms around my lower back, my two bodies seem to be out of breath. For a long time, she looked up and looked at me with gentle eyes. Her lips are charming and touching, which is very lovable. I looked down, grabbed her lips and kissed her, two snake-like tongues intertwined.

I picked her up and walked towards the back room. Putting her gently on the bed, she half squinted shyly, her face flushed and her breathing became heavy. I slowly took off her skirt, and a beautiful white figure appeared in front of me, with a thin waist and rich breasts, which was so attractive. Wu Tong grabbed my neck and pulled me, and I fell into her arms. . . . . .

From then on, we are like addicts, and this poison is each other's bodies. I am addicted to her tenderness and passion.

And the beauty was completely forgotten by me, and the little darling only became my occasional miss.

There is no love between Jiao Mei and me. If you really want me to tell you something about us, you can only say that there is so-called affection, because she is the little darling's mother.

And Wu Tong gave me love, let me taste what love is like. A woman who is suitable for me physically, mentally and spiritually.

I haven't been back for two months. Occasionally, my family calls and asks me why I haven't come back yet. I always make excuses for being busy. Then talk about things at work and say that you must take time to go back when you are free.

In fact, my worries have not diminished. On the contrary, due to the deepening of my feelings with Tong Wu, this kind of worry is even more serious, and sometimes it even makes me feel uneasy.

Tong Wu and I were walking on the road when a tall and strong woman came from a distance. Inexplicably nervous, fearful, worried.

One noon on Sunday, Tong Wu said that the fish in a shop at the bus station was delicious, so we went. After dinner, we walked side by side on the road. Tong Wu suddenly saw a grain of rice in my mouth and reached out to help me.

Just then, "Zhang Guoqing!" A rough and angry voice came into my ears. I don't have to look back, and I know it's charming, the woman with a loud voice, my wife.

My heart was pounding, I was surprised and panicked, and I felt my hair stand on end. At the same time, we turned our heads and met Jiao Mei's angry eyes.

"good! Zhang Guoqing, you haven't been home for two months. You are always busy. So you slept with this woman? ! "

Then he turned his head, pointing to Tong Wu and scolded, "You are a fox, seducing your husband, you are shameless! Shameless! " Say and suddenly dumped Tong Wu a loud slap in the face. Tong Wu stayed where he was, clutching his hot face, but he could not speak with his mouth open.

At this time, pedestrians on the side will come around. Jiao Mei stepped forward and tore at Tong Wu. I grabbed Jiao Mei's hand, clamped her like an iron tongs and said loudly, "Don't make any noise!" " . Then he said to Tong Wu, "I'm sorry, Tong Wu. You go back first and I'll explain it to you later! "

Then I dragged my charm, pushed the crowd away and left.

Back in the dormitory, Jiao Mei scolded us like a machine gun.

"I didn't marry you until I saw your honesty. I didn't expect you to find a woman so soon. I worked hard at home, being a cow and a horse for your family, taking care of your parents and giving birth to your children. I didn't expect you to do this to me! "

And hit it head-on

I want to defend myself, but I think I'd better throw caution to the wind and confess.

In the dormitory, I don't want to make it any more complicated. Jiao Mei's crying will not end. I asked my colleagues for leave, packed my luggage and dragged my sister to the station.

As soon as I got home, I threw myself on the bed and howled loudly. My parents were bored for a while, and my mother muttered, "Why did they suddenly run home?" Still crying? "

My mother came into the room and asked lovingly, "Jiao Mei, what's the matter? Tell mom. "

"Zhang Guoqing found a woman outside!" Ouch. . . . . .

My mother also cried, "National Day, you really have no conscience. You can be such a good daughter-in-law as Jiao Mei. " . I can tell you, the daughter-in-law married in, we are the people of the Zhang family, and death is the ghost of the Zhang family. I will recognize Jiao Mei. You can't marry another woman until I close my eyes. "

Then scold me, and then count the delicate, good, comfortable and virtuous charm one by one.

Under the protection of her mother-in-law, Jiao Mei became more energetic. She sobbed and said, "Zhang Guoqing, if you want to be with that woman, I don't want this baby. I will abort it tomorrow. Anyway, you don't want us, and then I'll take my little darling back to her family. " As he spoke, he slapped his stomach hard.

My mother hurried forward, grabbed her hand and cried, "What is this? Sin, you can't fight. " He shouted at me, "Dead man, don't stop!" "

It took a long time to stop. In the evening, my parents talked to me again and said, "You are dead. Now that Jiao Mei is pregnant, I calculated my life and said that this baby must be a son. Mom will kill you if you still hang out with that woman. "

05

A week later, I returned to this city. I am exhausted at home, but I still miss Tong Wu all the time, and my eyelids are always jumping. I'm worried about what will happen.

I am timid and eager to see her. I don't know how to explain it to her. I don't know if she will listen to me, and I don't know if she will forgive me.

I came to her door with many questions. Knocking at the door, no one answered. Then an aunt next door came and gave me a letter. Said Tong Wu had left. I asked her where she had gone, and she said she didn't know. The house was sold.

Her letter didn't tell me where she was going. If she had let me know where she was going, she wouldn't have left without saying goodbye.

I went to her unit to inquire again, and I don't know. Tong Wu was determined not to let me find her.

She just disappeared into my world. I was afraid of losing her, and now I finally lost her. My heart seems to be torn, my favorite person, I lost you!

I often run to the river to recall our past and get together.

Together with the past, the river flows slowly, flows far away, and finally merges into the sea. But I don't have anyone to snuggle up to. Fireflies are still flying in the grass. Everything here, every grass, tree, sand and stone, has witnessed our love. Now I have to look for her in those memories over and over again.

That letter is the only token for her and me. I put it in her favorite dream of red mansions and locked it in my drawer.

Later, my charming second child and I were born. It's just that he's not the son my mother predicted. My mother's wish came to nothing. She is a granddaughter again.

With the birth of my little daughter, I once again tasted the joy of being a father. With a pair of lovely daughters, the attachment to this family is getting deeper and deeper. Gradually, I got used to the charming voice and didn't feel so harsh.

Life is so dull, I still think there is no love between Jiao Mei and me, only affection.

Since Tong Wu left, the little light in my heart has gone out. My love was given to Tong Wu, and when she left, she took all my love with her.

So I no longer expect, I have no desire, I just want to live in peace of mind, without a trace of waves. You can respect your charming sister. In fact, deep down, it is better to cherish beauty. There is no doubt that she is a great wife, mother and daughter-in-law.

The star has changed, and both daughters have gone to college. Jiao Mei unfortunately got liver cancer and died a year ago. This woman who devoted her life to me didn't get my love until she died. I told you, I only have a crush on her.

In a blink of an eye, it was National Day, and all the daughters who went to college came back.

I went to the vegetable market to buy food and saw a woman about forty years old buying fish. This figure seems familiar. Next to me stood a boy about my daughter's age, tall and big.

I walked towards them and stared at her closely, fearing that she would disappear in front of my eyes and get closer and closer in the blink of an eye. . . . . .

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