Some misses are not wrong, but passed.

The first time I listened to Xie Yuxin's "Grade Three" was probably at 200 1, when I was a teenager and a freshman.

Once I did well in the exam, my aunt rewarded me with a purple MP3, which was very light, only with the play button and the forward and backward button, but I couldn't see the lyrics. The first song I turned on was The Third Day.

At that time, this song was popular in the streets and was played on the school radio every afternoon. Lin Xiaoyu, who sits next to me, likes it very much, too.

She copied the lyrics in her notebook. During the break, I turned on the MP3, put one earplug in my ear and the other in Lin Xiaoyu's ear, and they hummed along with the lyrics until class.

Once, while listening to this song, I suddenly wrote a word "good" in the draft book. I pulled out my earplugs in shock and shouted in a conditioned way.

What! ! Chen Hao! !

I shouted, and Chen Hao, who was cleaning the blackboard, immediately looked back at me. I shrugged and said nothing, but Lin Xiaoyu next to me was inexplicably angry.

At that moment, I suddenly seemed to understand something.

After coming home from school, I asked Lin Xiaoyu timidly: Do you like Chen Hao?

She asked me warily: Do you like Chen Hao too? I quickly waved my hand and said that I was not.

She said to me confidentially: There is a person who will miss you when you eat, when you walk, before you go to bed and when you wake up. I guess I like it. Yao Xi, don't tell anyone.

I met her later. I didn't know anything at that time, but nodded meaningfully.

Chen Hao, who has a crush on Xiaoyu, is the monitor of our class. Good academic performance, Libra, can play the guitar, grow tall and big, high school will be 1.75 meters. He looks good when he smiles. All he has to do is smile and feel the whole world turn into color. Almost half of the girls in our class like him, excluding Lin Xiaoyu.

Since we learned that Xiaoyu has a crush on Chen Hao, our friendship has become stronger, and the feelings between girls are very strange. She told me everything even though she was tied to the toilet.

She also seems to have developed a particularly powerful skill. No matter what the traffic and crowds are, she can always search for information about Chen Hao as quickly as a radar.

I can remember the location where his bike stopped, the number of the jersey he wore when playing basketball, his favorite drinks, the songs he sang in the music class, his left hand turning the pen, his serious appearance, his back leaning against the window, and even the color of his shirt button.

He will also secretly remember the books borrowed from the library and borrow them next time. However, whenever Chen Hao finishes reading a book, Xiaoyu will find it extremely beautiful and always reluctant to return it.

Every week, she spends all her pocket money on Boys and Girls without missing a single issue. Then use a ballpoint pen to draw Libra and your own constellation in the constellation area of the book, and carefully do every love test in the book.

Once I borrowed a pencil from her and found a love folded with ten dollars in her pencil box. As soon as I picked it up, Xiaoyu immediately took it back.

I blushed. That was the last time the teacher collected tuition and fees. The teacher had no change, so she conveniently gave Chen Hao ten dollars in change, and she also paid tuition and fees. She secretly folded the ten dollars into a loving shape and carefully treasured them. I kept it in my wallet until later, and I didn't want to spend it.

On another school sports meeting, Xiao Yu lost a school uniform, which was picked up by Chen Hao in the class area next door to us, and then returned to Xiao Yu. Xiaoyu is so happy! When I got home, I giggled and refused to let her mother wash the school uniform, because it was from Chen Hao and smelled like Chen Hao.

That's not enough. Every time Chen Hao passes by with a smelly sweat after playing the ball, Xiaoyu actually thinks that the sweat he flows through is fragrant.

Unrequited love can make people obsessed, and it is hard to see.

When you have a crush on someone, it becomes particularly difficult to dress up. At least I think Xiaoyu is.

Wear a fashionable and bright dress lest he think he is too flashy when he sees it. Dress ordinary, but I'm afraid I'm not bright enough in the crowd, lest he can't see it. Wearing a skirt with suspenders in summer is afraid that the other person will feel too exposed, and wearing a high collar in winter is afraid that he will feel too timid.

Every time I wait for her to go to school at her house, she dawdles in front of the mirror and finally chooses a dress to come to school.

We were all timid in high school. Xiaoyu never dared to speak to Chen Hao. She said that she was not good and was afraid of being rejected by him. It would be nice to see it from a distance.

Once a person begins to secretly love, it is like being caught in a game that is caught off guard.

Those dark feelings are like invincible demons. You try your best to beat it again and again, but you can't kill it. Then it will look brand-new and try to swallow you up. Whenever you are exhausted and want to fall down, you can see flashing lights in the dark, but you dare not cross the line when you chase forward. So I had to let it go and sway with the wind.

Because I am afraid that he will take the initiative first, I feel that he is not reserved enough.

Because he was afraid that if he didn't say it, others would take it away immediately.

Because I'm afraid, I'm afraid that if I tell you the truth, I'll be the one who loves myself first.

Because of fear, I have to keep my heart full and lock everything in the safest place in my heart.

Really like a person, that's probably it.

Want to touch and retract your hand.

In this way, we are in the third year of high school and are about to graduate. Once in physical education class, Xiaoyu and I sat under the big banyan tree in school with an ice cream.

Xiaoyu is always excited about Chen Hao. She said that sometimes their eyes meet inadvertently, and both sides will immediately dodge and look away.

From many subtle things, I always feel that Chen Hao seems to like her, but I'm afraid it's an illusion.

She asked me what to do, and I suggested that she write a letter to tell Chen Hao.

She said she didn't dare to send it, and I didn't know where to borrow it. I bullet said, I send!

Finally, with my encouragement, Lin Xiaoyu decided to go home at night and write a letter to Chen Hao to express her love.

After the mock exam in the evening, she first wrote it in the draft book and then copied it to the stationery.

While writing, I was thinking about Chen Hao's reaction after reading the letter. When I was nervous, I wrote the name of Chen Hao that I should have written.

So, I changed it and copied several identical letters back and forth.

When I finished copying the fifth time, I checked every word from beginning to end. Finally, I didn't find any typos and stopped writing without any punctuation mistakes. Just as she was preparing to pack up and go to bed, Xiaoyu's mother suddenly appeared behind her, and Xiaoyu immediately stuffed the letter into her exercise book in a panic.

Seeing mom off, Xiaoyu fell asleep.

The next afternoon, I waited for Xiaoyu to go home together after school, and I was killed by a math teacher halfway and stopped Xiaoyu. I walked away in a friendly way.

Xiaoyu later told me that the math teacher found this love letter in the exercise book that day and told Xiaoyu to review it well and put love and love aside first. Don't affect Chen Hao's study, but he will take an examination of an institution.

I have been secretly in love until graduation, and I have nothing.

2

After graduation, I studied in different places with Xiaoyu and Chen Hao, and there were people everywhere.

I advised Xiaoyu that unrequited love is mostly a one-man show with no results, so we should close our hearts as soon as possible, but Xiaoyu never gave up.

When the university was about to graduate, Xiaoyu asked around and finally added Chen Hao's QQ. At this point, both of them have faded from their shyness in high school.

They talked deeper and deeper. Finally, one afternoon, Xiaoyu held her breath and said to Chen Hao on QQ: Chen Hao, I like you.

Chen Hao didn't reply to her for a long time. Xiaoyu was crying, but Chen Hao didn't reply.

Xiaoyu sent it again: you don't like me, I know, it doesn't matter, I like you for several years.

Chen Hao still hasn't responded. But his head was always there.

Although this result was predicted several years ago, Xiaoyu was still very sad, like a deflated balloon, scattered on the keyboard.

I was about to close QQ when a sentence flashed through Chen Hao's mind: I like you for several years, too.

More stupid than unrequited love is mutual unrequited love.

Smile through tears. These two fools are really happy together.

In the second year of long-distance love, both of them returned to work in the city. I missed so many years of secret love, two years of long-distance love, and finally got together.

Before and after the flowers, it is very loving. After meeting each other's parents, the two sides decided to promise each other for life.

When we were together for the New Year, Chen Hao asked Xiaoyu: Xiaoyu, how long are you going to love me?

All my life. Xiaoyu answered without thinking.

Chen Hao said, "It's too short".

Then add next life.

Not enough.

Forever and ever. Small language answer.

The two embraced each other tightly and felt that no one could live without anyone in this life.

At this point in the story of the princess and the prince, even I thought there would be a happy ending, but it didn't.

Liking living with you is really two different things. The two have always been in a long-distance relationship, suddenly living together, and their personalities and living habits need to be adjusted. Both sides have never been in love, they don't know how to communicate when they encounter problems, and they often have a cold war.

Because of the cold war of new house decoration, wedding photos, pots and pans, and all kinds of strange and ordinary things, you can always find places that have not been rounded in your life.

Sometimes Xiaoyu will write in QQ space in sadness and despair: What if one day I am gone?

However, despite all the noise, no one wants to leave.

One afternoon after the sleet, the wedding dress shop called and said that the wedding photos had been retouched and asked them to choose photos.

Chen Hao drove to the bridal shop with a light rain. The road after the rain was not easy and the road was slippery. Chen Hao drove a little fast, and the whisper in the passenger seat reminded him to pay attention to safety.

Chen Haogang turned his head and a truck came around the corner. Chen Hao haven't had time to react, small language xin has tried to block in front of Chen Hao.

When I arrived at the hospital, Xiaoyu was still alive, lying in the intensive care unit, and was in a severe coma. Chen Hao's limbs were injured, but his consciousness was clear.

The doctor said that Xiaoyu's leg was completely broken, so he could not supply blood and needed amputation. And may never wake up, Chen Hao signed with tears in his eyes.

Outside the ward, Chen Hao's mother burst into tears. What a good wife! She gave her life to protect her son. So precious, who doesn't cry!

For three days in a row, Chen Hao dared not leave the intensive care unit, trying to wake up unconscious whispers again and again.

Because Xiaoyu said she would love him forever. Because she still has his ten dollars in her wallet.

Lin Xiaoyu, wake up! Don't fucking sleep! Wake up! ! ! Each of us is praying for the light rain.

But after all, I failed to wake Xiaoyu again. When we were taken to the hospital, our internal organs were seriously damaged. Xiaoyu is type O blood, and the warehouse is ischemic. Xiaoyu left in less than a week

I still remember that the day she left was particularly cold, the wind was blowing outside, the bare branches in the street shook wantonly, and Chen Hao didn't speak, and her eyes were empty and scary.

It was not until I saw Xiaoyu's parents that I plopped down on my knees. A person muttered: If I had been more careful, Xiaoyu wouldn't have had an accident. Right? If I stop the whisper from coming, it will still be there. Right? If I had been with her earlier, I wouldn't have wasted so long, would I?

No one answered his question, there is no if in this world. In this way, the color world we have always liked to see was instantly painted in black and white.

There are not many pedestrians on the street crossing the cold current. The weather forecast said it was the coldest day in that winter.

three

The following year, I heard that Chen Hao resigned. I seldom heard from him again, but I knew that Chen Hao felt very remorse and regret.

Every time the mouse passes, his QQ signature is: Chen Hao, you are not a fucking person, you can't even protect your own woman! !

Sometimes it will be written like this: If I could cherish you at that time, would you feel more at ease?

After all, he can't let go and forgive himself.

However, QQ in Lin Xiaoyu is always gray, and it is no longer bright. I want to see her open her space several times, but I can always find traces of Chen Hao's visit.

Sometimes I write a sentence on the message board: Xiaoyu, are you okay? Sometimes I will reply under Xiaoyu's photo: Xiaoyu, I miss you very much.

Finally, one day, I saw him in the small language space saying that he had started over. Start a new job and meet new people. Although I was sad, I began to accept it, and I was relieved.

After leaving Xiaoyu, I saw Chen Hao again at the class reunion. Chen Hao was late for a long time that day and didn't show up until the end of the day. We all joked that he might take a sister out for a ride very late. Chen Hao silly smile: Brothers and sisters, I'm sorry, I fined myself three cups. Then he laughed with us.

I'm confused, nine points drunk, and I can't drive. Two classmates and I are going to send him home together.

Chen Hao muttered to the classmate who was driving: Go around, don't take Dongfeng Road, Xiaoyu is lying there, I'm afraid she will be crushed, and she hurts!

It turned out that he was late by detour. We looked at each other in the car, and no one spoke again.

I leaned my head back hard. It feels like I have a handful of mustard in my mouth. When I swallowed it, my tears came out.

At night, dim street lamps on both sides of the road shine on Chen Hao's red face through the window. I don't know whether he is drunk or awake.

four

Later, I heard that Chen Hao had a new girlfriend. The girl's name is Momo. She is very kind to Chen Hao. She knows all the stories between Chen Hao and Xiaoyu.

I really saw DOG in the wedding photos of friends circle in Chen Hao. I opened the big picture and found that they were holding wedding photos of Lin Xiaoyu and Chen Hao.

Three people smiled brightly at the wedding photos, but I cried with my mobile phone. I have seen couples taking wedding photos with their children, but I have never seen three adults taking wedding photos.

This time, I know, Chen Hao finally turned over a page.

After marriage, Chen Hao took DOG to Xiaoyu's graveyard. DOG touched the photo on the tombstone: Sister Xiaoyu, I will take good care of Chen Hao, don't worry!

Chen Hao didn't speak, looked at the small language in the photo with warmth. She smiles just like high school, a little shy and a little shy.

Later, Chen Hao rarely appeared in QQ space and friends circle. We are all running for our own lives, and I seldom pay attention to his life. I heard from my classmates that he gave birth to a daughter, which I have never seen.

Until China New Year, I went shopping and met Chen Hao and his family.

DOG greeted me with her baby in her arms: "This is my daughter, isn't it cute? She was born at 6 kg and 72 Liang, which was a natural birth. Less than 10 minutes into the delivery room, the doctors were scared. I didn't expect it to be so smooth. " .

I teased the little girl and asked her name.

Chen Hao, pushing a shopping cart, replied, Her name is Chen Siyu, and she is a linguist.

DOG kissed her daughter on the cheek: Our family is the most obedient! Let's smile!

The daughter in her arms giggled as if she understood what we said.

At this time, the stereo in the mall is playing "The Third Day".

Xie Yuxin sang in her sweet voice:

Love makes us meet, love makes us fall in love.

Love makes us hate each other but think about each other all the time.

Love makes us change, love makes us lonely.

Love makes us meet and pretend to turn a blind eye.

On the third day after you disappeared, I cried quietly all night.

Who let feelings be changed by time and staggered in an instant?

……

When I close my eyes, I can still see the teenage girl sighing under the big banyan tree, and her youth hurts her bones and pretends not to know. She is within reach.

Life is short, and everyone's time is limited. No one can predict the future, no matter your lover, family or friends, please don't hesitate to cherish and love in time.

Because some mistakes are not wrong, but in the past.

Then it will be over, and those wasted time and opportunities will not come back.