In April, the wheat straw has been used up.

Every April, there must be a happy festival to fool others into being irresponsible, especially to find someone you like to confess loudly, and then laugh and say that I am joking.

However, one person played a big joke on this day 17 years ago, and this day has become the saddest day ever since. People who love him don't believe it. He is such a kind and warm person. How could he be willing to make others sad?

Stubbornly waiting, just think that that day is a prank on April Fool's Day. He never left, but has been hiding somewhere in the world. When he came back, he still looked like a teenager.

Lin once said: not a strange person, but the people around him are strange. April 1 day is not a special day, but these "people around" make it a special day for Leslie Cheung.

He condensed his wonderful life into 46 years. I have enjoyed glory and been down and out. I have heard boos and applause. I love women and I love men. I have cared about many people and been loved by many people. He is a legend that has been written for a long time and is sung forever in the rolling world of mortals.

He is like the sun, illuminating the night and warming others; Like the moon, he needs to absorb other people's light and heat. And all the contradictions and entanglements come from childhood, and he also cured his childhood with his life.

His family is well-off, but because his father has two wives, he can only live with his grandmother since he was a child. There are many people in the family, my father is irresponsible, and my mother hates and alienates. No one will care about his thoughts and needs.

He and his mother have only lived together for six months, and adults respect each other. Mom went to his house to go to the bathroom and asked him politely. It hurts my sensitive brother.

When I first entered the business, as a newcomer, borrowing clothes from famous stores would be snubbed by snobbish shop assistants. Being booed for performing on stage. Everyone knows his hat that flew off the stage and was thrown back. After eight years of hard work, he finally emerged, but due to the manipulation of the media, he was involved in a scolding war with Alan Tam and finally withdrew from the music scene.

After many years, these insulted and damaged past events have become his talk material, and he can talk to people with a smile from the beginning. However, deep down, he doesn't mind or care. These past events settled down and accumulated year after year until he was overwhelmed.

He demands too much of himself and wants to do everything to the extreme. Even if he speaks Mandarin, he speaks it best among Hong Kong artists. There is a saying in the circle: if you have any difficult role, give it to him and you will get it.

1986, he is a good policeman Song Zijie in The True Color of Heroes. A refreshing short hair, a white and clean smiling face and a face of ecstasy are the eternal Bai Yueguang in many people's hearts.

1987, ponceau playboy. Zhu Yu, a young man with delicate and gentle eyes, went too far, disturbed a pool of hearts and aroused a ripple. Where the meaning has not been completed, it has blossomed in the role.

That year, he was the scholar Ning Cai Chen in Ghost Story. The picturesque young lang, a little handsome and dull, will be shy when calling his brother, and he has fallen in love with this title since then and has been a brother all his life.

1990, he was Xu Zi sleeping in the wind in The True Story of Teddy Boy. On the road to freedom, fly and fly, and sleep in the wind when you are tired of flying. I was only buried once in my life, and that time was when I died.

199 1, he is the sea thief Zhan. Naive, chic and embarrassed. I want the whole world to know about him, but I can't help it.

1993, he is the Cheng Dieyi in Farewell My Concubine who is not crazy and can't live. The small building remains the same, and there is no Cheng Dieyi in the world. My brother once said that this is his most satisfying role, because it is the most like himself. The word absolute beauty has been vacant for a long time after him.

1994 He is the flawless Jiaming Gu in Golden Branches and Jade Leaves. Talent, face, money, but no love.

He is also an independent Ouyang Feng in Ashes of Time. Yellow sand desert, one room, one person and one hip flask. In The Ancient Road and the West Wind, the colder Janker looks, the more affectionate he is inside.

1997, he is the He Baorong who can't bear the loneliness in spring. As far away as Buenos Aires, he thought like a child that there was always someone waiting for him to come back in this world. At the concert he continued to spoil for ten years, Tony Leung Chiu Wai said to him, "I still have your phone number. As soon as I dialed, I left a message. Why don't we start from scratch! "

Hong Kong once had a list of male stars that rich women wanted to keep, and my brother topped the list. It is said that the maintenance fee is100000, at 1988.

Genius Huang Zhifeng once said: Only those who don't know Leslie Cheung, only those who don't know him and those who don't like him. Compared with his singing skills, his appearance is nothing; Compared with his personality, his singing and acting skills are nothing.

When my brother was filming Farewell My Concubine, the crew invited Mr. Wang and her husband Shi as their physical guidance. After the film was finished, my brother not only visited an old couple in Beijing many times, but also invited them to Hong Kong twice. After learning that Mr. Shi had cancer, he flew to Beijing, sat by the bed, fed him and made him laugh for six hours. The old man is stiff and never cries. He cried like a child that day.

He is multifaceted and contradictory. He is clever and naive. He is gentle and wild.

He gagged with four talented people in Hong Kong in "Nobody Defends Tonight". Smoking a cigarette, languid on the sofa, calm, all forgiven, driving at will, big scale, winning all the interviewed stars.

When asked what constellation it is, I replied shyly: I am a Virgo, although this is something I can never do. A group of salty and wet bosses burst into laughter. He even revealed the age of his virginity, and he was not afraid of being beaten by his agent afterwards?

He interviewed Lin Jianming in Love under the Starry Sky and praised Maggie Cheung's outstanding performance in Sweet Honey, but he didn't forget to make up for the dawn. Under the leadership of Maggie Cheung, Li Ming has made remarkable progress in performance.

He said that he almost died several times while filming Wong Kar-wai's film, and made it clear that he didn't agree with him. He worships Tony Leung Chiu Wai bluntly, but he can't stand the elegant way of pursuing tea ceremony when he has a sip of tea at home.

Across 1997, in full view, he joked with his mother. He said, "Mommy, how can you give birth to such a lovely and handsome me?" Was it that night that you and dad were very happy and excited? "

Everyone remembers that photo: he took Mr. Tang's hand and bravely walked forward without fear of paparazzi. As he himself said, "I am not most proud of my success, but I, Leslie Cheung, have always been Leslie Cheung."

But some characters are double-edged swords, which will become a mirror of a lonely person. When you stare into the abyss, the abyss will stare at you.

He is delicate, he is sensitive, and he can often see the hidden sincerity of others at a glance. In a few words, he can tell the essence of a person, so that others can introduce him as a confidant. But at the same time, it also allows him to quickly detect the subtle emotional changes of others. He will choose not to ask questions because of his slight frown and indifference in his words.

It seems that he has many friends, and everyone regards him as a bosom friend, but when he is in a bad mood, he says: no one in the world loves me at all, only I am alone. In the end, he would rather choose to shield himself, a small lone star will die, and thousands of things are unknown.

My brother once analyzed himself like this: "Sometimes I feel that I can't love others. Come to think of it, maybe I have never really loved anyone else. At that time, I thought I was in love with each other. Once I calm down, I will feel that I will always be lonely. "

He regards friends as the most important thing in life, but friends are too subtle species. After the test of greed, it will definitely disappoint a perfectionist. Besides, he is not only demanding of himself, but also of his friends. So he said he didn't have many friends.

When he suffered from depression, people did not have a clear understanding of the disease.

After his brother died, Anita Mui said, "I can't figure it out. I can't accept it. We were so worried about him, but he didn't respond. He couldn't find it on the phone and even changed his number. Sometimes a group of people are eating, and he suddenly stands up and walks away. In those days, he was like another person ... "

In this bound world, it is not easy to be yourself.

Others think that he is loved by thousands of people, but he knows that the world does not meet his own ideals.

Otherwise, on April 1 day, 2003, how could he have the courage to make such a decisive leap on the 24th floor of Wenhua Hotel and throw his soft body into hard cement?

"Travel Notes of Dream Ring" says, "Death is not the end, forgetting is. As long as someone remembers you, there will be flowers to guide you home. "

There is so much overlap between light and shadow,

During that long time,

His youthful spirit remains the same,

Absolute beauty remains the same,

Only people who like him,

Grow up and get old.

The Hong Kong media once took a photo: in the shopping mall, an old woman stared at the image of her brother on the screen, stopped for a long time and wrote a line on the paper: "I miss the happiness you gave us."

Some people are gone, but they don't want to disappear completely, so they choose to remember forever and let them live in memories.

In April, the wheat straw has been used up.