What kind of experience is it to live with a mask every day?

The mask I understand is an invisible package of self-perception, which is not easy for others to see through. That's who you are, but the mask on your face disguises you in another way. After a long time, this mask seems to blend in with your previous face. In the end, you don't know whether you are deceiving others or yourself.

I once played an honest adventure with others, and the truth I got was the kind that would be reflected. The content is to let everyone present say what they think of you, good or bad, and don't get angry. I'm actually looking forward to seeing what others think of me. But I was really surprised to hear such comments as "good temper, big heart", "cheerful and generous personality", "familiarity and enthusiasm", "I don't care about anything, I am a lovely girl" and "I am very courageous and straightforward".

In my mind, I classify myself as introverted and petty. I am very possessive. My first reaction when I meet something is to flinch. I dare not say hello when I meet strangers. I can remember that others are not good to me for a long time. I often feel sad. I think these are my nature. But now my college friends tell me that I am actually a cheerful, generous and courageous person.

I don't think my self-awareness is biased, but I still think I am a sensitive and introverted girl. I can only admit that my mask is successful, and I succeeded in letting others see a completely different me. I'm still the one who always gives up when things happen, but in the end I can only clap my chest and tell myself that I'm not afraid, and then continue to do things, because I know that if I don't work hard, no one will help me. So in the end, I seem to have become such a person.