Do you want to go home for a while?

I came to Shenzhen as soon as I graduated from college, and it has been several years before I knew it. During this time, I not only had the intention and impulse to go back to my hometown for a moment, but also several times.

1, the work was eliminated.

When I first came to Shenzhen, I came with expectations and dreams. I didn't know this was not the case until I really arrived in Shenzhen. In the process of looking for a job, I am also struggling. Because I don't graduate from a famous university and have no work experience, I always have to wait for the notice when interviewing. Later, I got a job in business. At first, I kept calling customers and giving them all kinds of abuse and scolding. Some customers even said that I would call the police again, and the blow at work could not be explained in a few words, but there were no tears and sympathy in the workplace. A month later, the personnel manager talked to me and said that my performance this month could not meet the requirements, I didn't develop new customers, and the number of interested customers was not enough. Although I said a lot, he also said a lot of good things during the period, and my work attitude was also very serious and diligent, but I didn't show anything. The company can't tolerate you. I feel that I have just entered the working state, and I have been so ruthlessly hit by the company. I feel unspeakable sadness in my heart. At that moment, I really wanted to go home and didn't want to stay in Shenzhen. The pressure was so great.

2. When calling home

I finally settled down in Shenzhen, and my work is relatively stable, but every time I pick up the phone and call home, I feel that I should stay at home and not come to Shenzhen, no matter what happens at home. And I'm not the only one at home. My brother left his hometown for Guangzhou like me, so there's no one at home. Once something happens, we are not at home and can't solve it in time. I just feel that I am not filial, and I have to come to Shenzhen so far from home. In fact, it is good to think of domestic development, and then think of all kinds of good things in China and all kinds of bad things in Shenzhen. Compared before and after, I want to go home more.

3. When watching friends' dynamics

There were many classmates and friends who came with me before. Later, because they didn't adapt to the fast pace of Shenzhen, they all went back to their hometown one after another. Some are in banks, some are civil servants and some are teachers. When you are free, you often watch the dynamics of your friends in the circle of friends or space. Every time I see pictures or videos sent by them, I always play around my hometown. When I was eating and living a leisurely lifestyle, I was particularly envious and secretly complained about why I had to leave my hometown for Shenzhen.